Done with the appetizer! Where's the Beef? :]
Linking to PAIL's MMM and a good picture to go along with my last post and to say thanks so much for the baby food advice!
👻A SPOOKTACULAR EVENT...
7 months ago
Monday, July 2, 2012
Friday, June 29, 2012
Baby Food
LB has been on solids since 4 months... a little rice cereal at first, then some avocado. Since then, a typical day consists of oatmeal in the morning and a veggie/fruit at both lunch and dinner. He gets between 15-20 ounces of breastmilk and/or formula total. The pedi said that is a little on the low side but it sounds like we have a "snacker" who is more content getting a little bit throughout the day. I try to give him milk before the solids and after but when he knocks it out of my hand I get the point. But that's not where I want to go with this post. I am looking for input about what "real" things to give LB. I have given him sweet potato and avocado and the rest is baby food. Baby food is real, but you know what I mean... "fresh" I guess is the better word.
Beyond sweet potato and avocado, I'm out of ideas. No bananas because of the constipation issues. I should say here that baby led weaning makes sense to me but it just doesn't work out for our lifestyle right now (aka not enough time to clean afterwards & eating mostly junk!)
Today, I embarked on cooking and freezing some squash. If you think that I will show "pretty" pictures and say this was easy and fun, you will be disappointed. My pics will not make it to p.interest lol. This was hard, messy work and kudos to those that get this done with a little one!
Basically, I washed the squash, cut it in halves, scooped out the insides, put in the oven face down in some water for 40 minutes, then scooped out the meat and put it in some small freezer containers. I left out the puree step because it came out really mashed up anyway but that was included in the directions I used. Whew! I am looking for some easy ways to whip up some fresh fruit/veggies!
Beyond sweet potato and avocado, I'm out of ideas. No bananas because of the constipation issues. I should say here that baby led weaning makes sense to me but it just doesn't work out for our lifestyle right now (aka not enough time to clean afterwards & eating mostly junk!)
Today, I embarked on cooking and freezing some squash. If you think that I will show "pretty" pictures and say this was easy and fun, you will be disappointed. My pics will not make it to p.interest lol. This was hard, messy work and kudos to those that get this done with a little one!
Basically, I washed the squash, cut it in halves, scooped out the insides, put in the oven face down in some water for 40 minutes, then scooped out the meat and put it in some small freezer containers. I left out the puree step because it came out really mashed up anyway but that was included in the directions I used. Whew! I am looking for some easy ways to whip up some fresh fruit/veggies!
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| Washed, sliced and scooped out |
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| In the pan before I added water |
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| Done, scooped out the insides and placed in the containers for freezing |
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| Well? Maybe I like it... maybe not, let me think about it! |
Thursday, June 28, 2012
First Set of Wheels
Despite repeated efforts and encouragement from his parents...
Our LB refuses to roll from back to front, to sit up on his own, to scoot, to hold a cup or to sleep through the night.
Our LB refuses to roll from back to front, to sit up on his own, to scoot, to hold a cup or to sleep through the night.
But, Boy Oh Boy, can he RUN!!!
Ah bab bab uh uh da, excuse me, I've been corrected. LB says "this is serious driving mom!" Lol.
Ah bab bab uh uh da, excuse me, I've been corrected. LB says "this is serious driving mom!" Lol.
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
To the Storage Totes
Dear storage totes,
To the clear tote- you hold tiny little onesies, outfits, hats and sleepers. The tags say "newborn." Most of them were gifts and I would sort, wash and stare at them time and time again while waiting until the day they could be used. Then LB arrived and I loved using each and every piece- from the sleepers to keep him warm and cozy to the Christmas outfit that made our newborn look like such a little man. You contain memories that will forever be treasured.
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To the blue tote- you hold sizes 0-3 & 3-6 months. These pieces represent many special firsts- from smiles and rolling over to holidays and trips adventures! LB was so cute in the P.olo outfit that matched dad and the sleeper with duck feet! You are full of onesies that my hot-natured little guy loved to wear alone as the days got warmer. I can't believe you are full already, which means that my LB is growing up way too fast.
To the clear tote- you hold tiny little onesies, outfits, hats and sleepers. The tags say "newborn." Most of them were gifts and I would sort, wash and stare at them time and time again while waiting until the day they could be used. Then LB arrived and I loved using each and every piece- from the sleepers to keep him warm and cozy to the Christmas outfit that made our newborn look like such a little man. You contain memories that will forever be treasured.
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I am just not ready to part with a single piece. I wanted to be sure you were aware of these precious clothes stories you hold. You represent a dream come true!
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Vacation with a Baby
I saw one of those sayings on a F.acebook post that "going to T.arget by yourself is a vacation for mom and going on vacation is work!" After returning from our first vacation last week, I would agree! However, I don't think we've ever laughed so much and the time together was priceless.
If I had advice to give to someone who is about to travel with a baby to the beach, these would be my "top 5 must haves" (in addition to the necessities of course).
1. Baggies and shopping store bags... in the car and in the luggage... for everything... soiled diapers, bottles, trash, sunscreen... multiple uses. Wipes too!
2. The pack-n-play was a real pain in the backside but we couldn't have done without it- instant changing table, bed and place to play. This seems like it would be a "given" but I debated taking it since he ends up in the bed with us anyway. Glad we did.
3. If you end up with several inflatable things like we did, take a small inflator! We took an inflatable pool for LB to lay in on the beach under our umbrella, a beach ball, a float, etc.
4. Travel size things really saved us space this year. In fact, LB had his six month check-up the day before and the pedi loaded us up on lotion, sunscreen and baby wash samples. Yay!
5. For the car- a bag of familiar and some toys LB hadn't seen before. This was advice from my co-workers and I wondered how much time toys could distract with a baby wanting out of a car seat but they did help. I went to yardsales a couple of weeks before our trip and got several things that were "new" to LB, all for under $5. I also never wanted a portable DVD player in the car but that is one of those never say never things when it comes to long car rides for us... it kept LB distracted for 10 minute chunks of time throughout the trip so it was worth it to me. Note to PC: I know it was by accident that the toy bag was packed in the !$*% cargo carrier on the way home. However, this meant mom had to be very creative and that at times all I had was lotion, a bracelet, a cup and- I digress- a m.axi pad.
Last thoughts on vacation- yes, it was different... supper was rushed and eaten with a baby in one arm, no long walks on the beach at night and lots more time spent in the room than ever before. But to be on a trip with OUR baby, I'm tearing up as a type this, a void that we always felt was more than fulfilled. To see him look at things with amazement and enjoy feeling the sand and water on his toes... our cup runneth over!
If I had advice to give to someone who is about to travel with a baby to the beach, these would be my "top 5 must haves" (in addition to the necessities of course).
1. Baggies and shopping store bags... in the car and in the luggage... for everything... soiled diapers, bottles, trash, sunscreen... multiple uses. Wipes too!
2. The pack-n-play was a real pain in the backside but we couldn't have done without it- instant changing table, bed and place to play. This seems like it would be a "given" but I debated taking it since he ends up in the bed with us anyway. Glad we did.
3. If you end up with several inflatable things like we did, take a small inflator! We took an inflatable pool for LB to lay in on the beach under our umbrella, a beach ball, a float, etc.
4. Travel size things really saved us space this year. In fact, LB had his six month check-up the day before and the pedi loaded us up on lotion, sunscreen and baby wash samples. Yay!
5. For the car- a bag of familiar and some toys LB hadn't seen before. This was advice from my co-workers and I wondered how much time toys could distract with a baby wanting out of a car seat but they did help. I went to yardsales a couple of weeks before our trip and got several things that were "new" to LB, all for under $5. I also never wanted a portable DVD player in the car but that is one of those never say never things when it comes to long car rides for us... it kept LB distracted for 10 minute chunks of time throughout the trip so it was worth it to me. Note to PC: I know it was by accident that the toy bag was packed in the !$*% cargo carrier on the way home. However, this meant mom had to be very creative and that at times all I had was lotion, a bracelet, a cup and- I digress- a m.axi pad.
Last thoughts on vacation- yes, it was different... supper was rushed and eaten with a baby in one arm, no long walks on the beach at night and lots more time spent in the room than ever before. But to be on a trip with OUR baby, I'm tearing up as a type this, a void that we always felt was more than fulfilled. To see him look at things with amazement and enjoy feeling the sand and water on his toes... our cup runneth over!
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Friday, June 15, 2012
Vacation... Arrival
No need to be so worried about the car ride. LB was a champ... either sleeping, watching something on the portable DVD, playing with toys or just chillin. We stopped three brief times to let him stretch and eat. Yay LB!
Then we got here. Big oops. Didn't check the clearance of the parking deck and the cargo carrier we borrowed doesn't fit. Enter moment of panic and telling PC to please come back from check-in with a plan. [Side note: The lady at the office seriously tells him that "it will be fine on the open top deck." ...Um, yeah, but that requires driving through the parking deck, which is the reason we came to ask what to do in the first place. PC politely explained the situation again.] Next. PC gets some help and takes the thing off and loads it on a luggage cart and we plan on just taking it to our room. LB and I take off to the top deck to meet PC after he's dropped off the cargo carrier. Poor PC... a few minutes later he comes around the corner and still has the (!*#$) cargo carrier on the cart. It won't fit through any of the elevator doors! He is covered in sweat from pushing that thing up several levels of the parking deck and wouldn't you know something like this always happens when you have to use the bathroom! End result- cargo carrier is tied down in our parking space for the duration of the trip and PC truly deserves a special Father's Day Weekend. And... we are having a good laugh.
Then we got here. Big oops. Didn't check the clearance of the parking deck and the cargo carrier we borrowed doesn't fit. Enter moment of panic and telling PC to please come back from check-in with a plan. [Side note: The lady at the office seriously tells him that "it will be fine on the open top deck." ...Um, yeah, but that requires driving through the parking deck, which is the reason we came to ask what to do in the first place. PC politely explained the situation again.] Next. PC gets some help and takes the thing off and loads it on a luggage cart and we plan on just taking it to our room. LB and I take off to the top deck to meet PC after he's dropped off the cargo carrier. Poor PC... a few minutes later he comes around the corner and still has the (!*#$) cargo carrier on the cart. It won't fit through any of the elevator doors! He is covered in sweat from pushing that thing up several levels of the parking deck and wouldn't you know something like this always happens when you have to use the bathroom! End result- cargo carrier is tied down in our parking space for the duration of the trip and PC truly deserves a special Father's Day Weekend. And... we are having a good laugh.
To be continued....
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Three Months worth of Thought Vomit
Feel free to peruse the topics below of life at the Mac & PC home and skip or read whatever may be of interest:] Also, even though my son's name can be found in my blog, for the sake of keeping some anonymity I'm going to refer to him as LB (little bit/boy/blessing/baby, love bug... it works).
Pumping/Nursing/Solid Foods: I pump at or around 6 a.m., 10 a.m. and 2 p.m. and nurse twice in the evenings and through the night. Even with this, we use about 10-12 ounces of formula for supplementing and mixing with cereal. LB eats oatmeal, avocado & has juice at lunch and rice cereal and another (baby food) fruit at supper. These are all small portions but he (so far, knock on wood) is a really good eater with whatever is put in front of him. The constipation from introducing solids has not been so great. Prunes are usually the fruit choice for supper these days! I love the idea of making food or letting him try out what we are eating but that would mean lots of McD.onalds & C.hicFil.A, so cereals & mashed fruit it will be!
Avocados: Took me some practice to figure these out and I'm still looking for ideas. I let them ripen 2-3 days, then scoop out the insides, mash up and freeze in ice cube trays. He gets one cube mixed with a little formula for his lunch meal.
Sleeping: We've actually seemed to go backwards since introducing solids or since 5 months old. LB was waking around 1 a.m. and 4 a.m., nursing and going back to sleep. Now if he starts out in the crib by 9 p.m. he ends up in our bed by 12 a.m. and nurses randomly until getting up around 5 a.m., ready to play. If he's not nursing, he is wiggling, kicking or reaching out to hold my hair or touch my face. Sweet as that is, I am tired from all the rest-less-ness. I just keeping holding out for that one night when he starts out in the crib and stays in the crib all.night.long.
Babydancing: Do I still call it that? It's actually referred to more often as "nap" time around here! And we are not taking many naps because 1- when it is nap time we're too tired to nap, 2- scar tissue from giving birth means naps are painful, 3- no time for naps and 4- so many things to do when it really is nap time and 5- mood music for nap time is the humming of the baby monitor with lullabies in the background. Do they make a mobile that plays Chi.cago's Greatest Hits? Still it is great to be scheduling around nap times rather than OPK's! And the scar tissue... the ob/gyn says that will be fine again in time or there is a procedure. When he describes the procedure it sounds like it would just lead to more scar tissue, no thanks. Ke.gels before birth, Ke.gels after birth!
ART- Done. A family of three we will be and we're both beyond happy & blessed with that! I know that some would say "it can still happen" but I know my body and what we went through... it is broken when it comes to making a baby the "old fashioned" way. Those treatments were a part-time job and I'm turning in my resignation!
Marriage: Strained, but we both know that this is a season of life that comes with new challenges. We've talked about being a united front on decisions. We're seeing so many of our friends/colleagues (whose kids are much older of course because of our IF journey) navigate through the preteen years and some are taking sides with their kids when their spouse doesn't agree. We've seen some marriages almost come apart because of this. Our topics are diapers rather than dating but it's important to us for our child to see us as a team. On that note, I have improved in the area of turning baby duties over to dad and then letting them be. That was hard at first because I could anticipate some cues and cries and gave way too many instructions "try holding him this way, did you check his diaper, etc." and it just stressed all three of us out. LB is with his dad 2 hours every morning and they do their thing. It's all good.
Blogging: I miss it. I hope to read, post, and comment more when I have a few weeks off this summer. I can't wait to check out the new PAIL site!
LB: We're having more fun this month than ever. We have GIGGLES, and all it took was making a hacking-gag-type noise and tickling his tummy... odd, but I'm proud to get them even if it requires weird noises. We are spending a lot of time in the floor on a blanket just playing. A favorite new game is to hold this big red ball with hands & feet then kick or push it away and watch mom and dad go get it. I also think LB is going to be a champ at the "uh-oh" game... he drops it and we pick it up.
Summer plans and need ideas: Heading out for a weekend beach trip in a few weeks. What do I need to survive this trip with a six month old... especially for the 6 hour car ride? I am more worried about the ride than anything else. Some of it will be timed during a nap but that leaves about 4 hours to figure out how to be creative at keeping a very active baby confined to a seat that long. I've had one 20 minute back seat meltdown and it was awful! I only want to take essentials and just a stroller and beach stuff is going to take up much of the car! I stared out at the ocean on so many of our beach trips as a couple and dreamed of having a baby with us, it is going to be a surreal moment to experience the trip as a family of 3!
Working: I try not to dwell on the fact that I am away from this sweet baby 45 hours or more a week. He is with people who love him during the day and he is usually at our home. That is what keeps me going until I can get home and get my hands on him. Weekends have new meaning! I've known before and during IF that I would be a working mom outside of the home and it's just harder than I thought. I am fortunate that working in the education field means that I have holidays and a few weeks in the summer off... the goal is to make memories and make the most of every minute.
Life in general: Havinggood great times. Yes, we're tired and this is the hardest job ever, but we're having fun and experiencing a love for each other and this child that is just amazing. LB and I recently walked to my grandparent's house (just up the hill from us) and we sat in the sun room and my granny said "These are the best days of your lives. My mama used to say your children first step on your toes and then on your heart. My children are grown and now my grandchildren are grown and here is LB... it goes by way too fast. Enjoy every day." Yes mam.
Pumping/Nursing/Solid Foods: I pump at or around 6 a.m., 10 a.m. and 2 p.m. and nurse twice in the evenings and through the night. Even with this, we use about 10-12 ounces of formula for supplementing and mixing with cereal. LB eats oatmeal, avocado & has juice at lunch and rice cereal and another (baby food) fruit at supper. These are all small portions but he (so far, knock on wood) is a really good eater with whatever is put in front of him. The constipation from introducing solids has not been so great. Prunes are usually the fruit choice for supper these days! I love the idea of making food or letting him try out what we are eating but that would mean lots of McD.onalds & C.hicFil.A, so cereals & mashed fruit it will be!
Avocados: Took me some practice to figure these out and I'm still looking for ideas. I let them ripen 2-3 days, then scoop out the insides, mash up and freeze in ice cube trays. He gets one cube mixed with a little formula for his lunch meal.
Sleeping: We've actually seemed to go backwards since introducing solids or since 5 months old. LB was waking around 1 a.m. and 4 a.m., nursing and going back to sleep. Now if he starts out in the crib by 9 p.m. he ends up in our bed by 12 a.m. and nurses randomly until getting up around 5 a.m., ready to play. If he's not nursing, he is wiggling, kicking or reaching out to hold my hair or touch my face. Sweet as that is, I am tired from all the rest-less-ness. I just keeping holding out for that one night when he starts out in the crib and stays in the crib all.night.long.
Babydancing: Do I still call it that? It's actually referred to more often as "nap" time around here! And we are not taking many naps because 1- when it is nap time we're too tired to nap, 2- scar tissue from giving birth means naps are painful, 3- no time for naps and 4- so many things to do when it really is nap time and 5- mood music for nap time is the humming of the baby monitor with lullabies in the background. Do they make a mobile that plays Chi.cago's Greatest Hits? Still it is great to be scheduling around nap times rather than OPK's! And the scar tissue... the ob/gyn says that will be fine again in time or there is a procedure. When he describes the procedure it sounds like it would just lead to more scar tissue, no thanks. Ke.gels before birth, Ke.gels after birth!
ART- Done. A family of three we will be and we're both beyond happy & blessed with that! I know that some would say "it can still happen" but I know my body and what we went through... it is broken when it comes to making a baby the "old fashioned" way. Those treatments were a part-time job and I'm turning in my resignation!
Marriage: Strained, but we both know that this is a season of life that comes with new challenges. We've talked about being a united front on decisions. We're seeing so many of our friends/colleagues (whose kids are much older of course because of our IF journey) navigate through the preteen years and some are taking sides with their kids when their spouse doesn't agree. We've seen some marriages almost come apart because of this. Our topics are diapers rather than dating but it's important to us for our child to see us as a team. On that note, I have improved in the area of turning baby duties over to dad and then letting them be. That was hard at first because I could anticipate some cues and cries and gave way too many instructions "try holding him this way, did you check his diaper, etc." and it just stressed all three of us out. LB is with his dad 2 hours every morning and they do their thing. It's all good.
Blogging: I miss it. I hope to read, post, and comment more when I have a few weeks off this summer. I can't wait to check out the new PAIL site!
LB: We're having more fun this month than ever. We have GIGGLES, and all it took was making a hacking-gag-type noise and tickling his tummy... odd, but I'm proud to get them even if it requires weird noises. We are spending a lot of time in the floor on a blanket just playing. A favorite new game is to hold this big red ball with hands & feet then kick or push it away and watch mom and dad go get it. I also think LB is going to be a champ at the "uh-oh" game... he drops it and we pick it up.
Summer plans and need ideas: Heading out for a weekend beach trip in a few weeks. What do I need to survive this trip with a six month old... especially for the 6 hour car ride? I am more worried about the ride than anything else. Some of it will be timed during a nap but that leaves about 4 hours to figure out how to be creative at keeping a very active baby confined to a seat that long. I've had one 20 minute back seat meltdown and it was awful! I only want to take essentials and just a stroller and beach stuff is going to take up much of the car! I stared out at the ocean on so many of our beach trips as a couple and dreamed of having a baby with us, it is going to be a surreal moment to experience the trip as a family of 3!
Working: I try not to dwell on the fact that I am away from this sweet baby 45 hours or more a week. He is with people who love him during the day and he is usually at our home. That is what keeps me going until I can get home and get my hands on him. Weekends have new meaning! I've known before and during IF that I would be a working mom outside of the home and it's just harder than I thought. I am fortunate that working in the education field means that I have holidays and a few weeks in the summer off... the goal is to make memories and make the most of every minute.
Life in general: Having
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Five Months
I'm sitting here the night before Mother's Day, reading through blogs and occasionally glancing up to watch the first movie that PC and I have rented since bringing home a baby five months ago. PC fell asleep in the recliner within the first 15 minutes, about the same time as baby boy who is in his swing just a few feet away. It all makes me :].
It appears that I'm only going to be able to post a monthly update until I can figure out how to fit blogging into my life as a working mom. I am thankful to have that problem!
It appears that I'm only going to be able to post a monthly update until I can figure out how to fit blogging into my life as a working mom. I am thankful to have that problem!
Five Months
Weight- 14 lbs
Height- 26"
Clothing- some 3-6 months, 6 month jumpers and onesies
Diapers- size 2
Hair- Finally growing and looking light brown/blonde
Eyes- Blue
Feeding- Every 2 1/2-3 hours, longer stretches at night- you prefer the "more frequent small meals" plan
Sleeping- you have started really fighting sleep through the day so we're lucky to get in more than 30 minutes for a nap, you wake about twice through the night
Favorites- Jumperoo
Firsts- cereal
Things to remember:
You wake up in the morning calm and serious, but smiling on cue! You wake up so suddenly from naps... you will be asleep one minute and we look over at you the next and you are staring right back at us, funny!
You are starting to recognize family and generally do well with people you don't see as often, but you are always scanning a room for a familiar face.
You have started getting some rice cereal and a little bit of fruit every evening. You hit the tray then spread your arms out to say "more." It ends up looking like the Karate Kid balancing pose!
We had our first visit to the pedi for cold-like symptoms. Turned out to just be allergies, which we are accustomed to around here! We keep the humidifier going and suction your nose often.
You love for us to hold you up on your legs so that you can stomp the floor, or dance if that's what you're trying to do!
One night I was laying by you singing to get you to sleep and you started "singing" with me, I laughed and cried at the same time, it was so sweet! Warning: I am only a shower/car singer!
You enjoy touching anything and everything with your hands or your feet, so curious!
Still nothing makes you as happy as a bath!
You will repeat a few sounds and try to imitate our funny faces- we say "hey" and you say "a."
We have gotten just a couple of giggles out of you... I've tried every silly thing I know to do but you are one serious little dude.
Poop is something we celebrate these days! It comes about every 3-4 days and you are cranky on that last day and a much happier baby afterwards, we've added a little apple prune juice to try to help speed things along.
You do not want anyone to see you sleeping, so you pull the cover/burp cloth over your eyes.
I know there are things I'm leaving out but it is time to wrap up this Mother's Day by snuggling with my boys and sending up a special thank you prayer... this is a day I used to dream about celebrating. Anyone who is reading this and still waiting on your turn... don't give up! I am a six-years-waiting-and-only-two-good-eggs-IVF-mom... miracles still happen!
Still nothing makes you as happy as a bath!
We have gotten just a couple of giggles out of you... I've tried every silly thing I know to do but you are one serious little dude.
Poop is something we celebrate these days! It comes about every 3-4 days and you are cranky on that last day and a much happier baby afterwards, we've added a little apple prune juice to try to help speed things along.
You do not want anyone to see you sleeping, so you pull the cover/burp cloth over your eyes.
I know there are things I'm leaving out but it is time to wrap up this Mother's Day by snuggling with my boys and sending up a special thank you prayer... this is a day I used to dream about celebrating. Anyone who is reading this and still waiting on your turn... don't give up! I am a six-years-waiting-and-only-two-good-eggs-IVF-mom... miracles still happen!
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Four Months
Better late than never! Busy right now is an understatement.
But happy. And grateful.
But happy. And grateful.
March 10- April 10
Weight- 13 lbs (10-15%ile)
Height- 25 1/2" (70-75%ile)
Clothing- 3 months, some 3-6 months
Diapers- size 1
Hair- ??? Not much left to even make a prediction!
Eyes- Very Blue
Feeding- Every 2 1/2- 3 hours, longer stretches at night
Sleeping- you wake up twice and usually go right back to sleep at night, and maybe 2-3 hours during the day
Favorites- outdoors, t.v.
Firsts- Easter, trip to the mall
Things to remember:
You have really started "talking" a lot... sometimes nicely and sometimes with attitude! I really wish we could translate everything you are telling us!
I keep waiting on a giggle or a laugh. Dad and I got one good giggle when we were playing with you on the back porch, but other than that, your giggles come out as cute squeals.
You found your feet one day this month while sitting in the Bumbo. You reached out and grabbed them and then moved on to something else more interesting.
You are still drooling a lot and making us think that you are going to be an early teether.
You still love the piano gym and have started swatting at the toys more than kicking this month.
You are still smiling all the time... until we pull out the camera!
Your birthmark is about the size of a pencil eraser now. We are in the rapid growth phase for the next several months and then it will start to slowly get smaller and fade.
You have so much fun in the bath, splashing and kicking around little squirt toys.
You are holding your head up now with little or no support... good enough for the Jumperoo and you love it, for 10 minute stretches anyway!
You have grown SO much this month, you now have a tummy fat roll and chubby legs.
You snore!
You are hot-natured in a major way. We have found out that keeping you as close to naked as possible keeps you happy. I never thought I would be a mom who let her child go barefoot... until I had a baby who hates socks & shoes! Never say never!
We went to the mall and you were great, either sleeping or staring at all the colors.
To PC- You are busted staring dreamily at all those cool Mac gadgets. And that baby you're pushing around, he's already trying to use my MacBook. Yep, just accept :]
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| Easter Day, pants were a little big but still so cute! |
You are hot-natured in a major way. We have found out that keeping you as close to naked as possible keeps you happy. I never thought I would be a mom who let her child go barefoot... until I had a baby who hates socks & shoes! Never say never!
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| I thought I was clear about this mom... "I hate shoes!" |
To PC- You are busted staring dreamily at all those cool Mac gadgets. And that baby you're pushing around, he's already trying to use my MacBook. Yep, just accept :]
Can't wait to see what adventures await us next month! Love you so much sweet baby boy!
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Working, Growing, Pumping, Teething... Oh My!
I have a rare moment this evening because baby boy wore himself out with all of the attention and new toys he got today and has went to sleep early. After washing pump parts, I couldn't wait to say hello and send out an update in the blogosphere. I am reading on my phone when I get a chance, but I have been terrible at commenting:[ I really want to make time somewhere in the schedule for blogging because it is therapy, whether it's IF or new mom related... I need this place!
Working- it is hard, and I don't want to come across like I'm whining about it since there are so many who would love to have a job these days, but I am just struggling to get enough done there where I don't have to bring it here. This sounds crazy but I would really like to get a promotion with more pay because that would open more doors such as the possibility of PC staying home. I feel like I could actually handle longer hours and a bigger workload if PC was able to take care of all things home and baby. That plan would at least be 2 years in the making since we would have to attack some major debt first.
Growing- wow, is our little guy growing! The next update will be one for a four month old. Craziness! I will fill that post with updates but I can't wait to find out his weight and length this Friday at his four month check-up. First, those crazy doctors had to do a weight follow-up visit to make sure I wasn't starving him and now they will probably tell me he's eating too much lol. I am going to ask them about starting H. on his first food- avocados. Here's the website I've been using the most to research about introducing solids- http://wholesomebabyfood.momtastic.com/. I know that six months is generally regarded as a better time to introduce baby to solids but all babies are different and H. shows signs of being ready for a little something more. I will let you all know how it goes of course!
Pumping- I'm getting ready to transition to exclusive pumping with the exception of night time feedings. For whatever reason, H. is frustrated with the ladies. Maybe because he gets more bottles now that I'm back at work and nursing requires more effort... not sure... but I can enjoy bonding with him just as much by looking into those baby blues and holding his hand while he takes a bottle:] I feel grateful, especially after talking to so many friends and co-workers, that we have been able to nurse this long. He will still get as much breastmilk as possible as long as I'm pumping and producing.
Teething- It's happening. Already. The biggest clue is the bulging white blistery-looking places on his bottom gum but other signs are sucking on hands (or anything), drooling everywhere, pulling at ear/scratching head, some coughing and issues with nursing/taking the pacifier. We haven't resorted to any infant pain relievers at this point but I would love to know of any teething product recommendations!
That reminds me... someone recommended the nosefrida when I mentioned that the bulb syringes were not working for us and we could not do without it! I have had intentions of doing a blog post just devoted to that little handy tool and haven't made the time. If you have a little one with a stuffy nose and the bulb doesn't work... look it up and keep an open mind because it is SO worth the relief it gives to a stuffed up baby!
I'll end with the picture of our little "bunny" from today. We had this "My First Easter" outfit for fun and another one for dressing up.
Working- it is hard, and I don't want to come across like I'm whining about it since there are so many who would love to have a job these days, but I am just struggling to get enough done there where I don't have to bring it here. This sounds crazy but I would really like to get a promotion with more pay because that would open more doors such as the possibility of PC staying home. I feel like I could actually handle longer hours and a bigger workload if PC was able to take care of all things home and baby. That plan would at least be 2 years in the making since we would have to attack some major debt first.
Growing- wow, is our little guy growing! The next update will be one for a four month old. Craziness! I will fill that post with updates but I can't wait to find out his weight and length this Friday at his four month check-up. First, those crazy doctors had to do a weight follow-up visit to make sure I wasn't starving him and now they will probably tell me he's eating too much lol. I am going to ask them about starting H. on his first food- avocados. Here's the website I've been using the most to research about introducing solids- http://wholesomebabyfood.momtastic.com/. I know that six months is generally regarded as a better time to introduce baby to solids but all babies are different and H. shows signs of being ready for a little something more. I will let you all know how it goes of course!
Pumping- I'm getting ready to transition to exclusive pumping with the exception of night time feedings. For whatever reason, H. is frustrated with the ladies. Maybe because he gets more bottles now that I'm back at work and nursing requires more effort... not sure... but I can enjoy bonding with him just as much by looking into those baby blues and holding his hand while he takes a bottle:] I feel grateful, especially after talking to so many friends and co-workers, that we have been able to nurse this long. He will still get as much breastmilk as possible as long as I'm pumping and producing.
Teething- It's happening. Already. The biggest clue is the bulging white blistery-looking places on his bottom gum but other signs are sucking on hands (or anything), drooling everywhere, pulling at ear/scratching head, some coughing and issues with nursing/taking the pacifier. We haven't resorted to any infant pain relievers at this point but I would love to know of any teething product recommendations!
That reminds me... someone recommended the nosefrida when I mentioned that the bulb syringes were not working for us and we could not do without it! I have had intentions of doing a blog post just devoted to that little handy tool and haven't made the time. If you have a little one with a stuffy nose and the bulb doesn't work... look it up and keep an open mind because it is SO worth the relief it gives to a stuffed up baby!
I'll end with the picture of our little "bunny" from today. We had this "My First Easter" outfit for fun and another one for dressing up.
Yesterday marked one year that I got the call from the RE's office and our lives forever changed. It is my favorite blog post besides the day we brought our little miracle home.
Dream.Come.True.
Dream.Come.True.
Monday, March 26, 2012
Happy Anniversaries!!!
Seven years ago today, I married my P.rince C.harming and life got so much sweeter! What a roller coaster past year it was! From giving me those awful PIO shots in the rear to holding my hand through the birth of our son, he stood by my side through every up, down, twist and turn. All in all, there were many more ups:] I love you PC.
One year ago today, I had a 12 and 8 cell embryo transfer and I'm holding one very special baby boy as a result!
March 26th... you have been good to me, making it a special day to remember how grateful I am for the two boys that have stolen my heart more than I ever thought was possible. Happy Anniversaries!
One year ago today, I had a 12 and 8 cell embryo transfer and I'm holding one very special baby boy as a result!
Friday, March 16, 2012
BTW= Back to Work & By The Way
Back to Work= The "New Normal"
Wake up at 5:15 a.m.
Shower
Get Dressed
Nurse
Any baby needs- diaper change, clean paci, clean burp cloth, wash bottles
Warm up breakfast sandwich
Pack lunch, pack pump parts & bottles
Leave at 7:00 a.m.
Eat breakfast on the way
Arrive to work at 7:15
Pump at 8:30 a.m.
Pump/eat lunch at 11:30 a.m.
Pump at 2:00 p.m.
Leave at 4:00 p.m.
Arrive home at 4:15 p.m.
Change clothes, wash hands
KISS BABY
Nurse
Eat supper
Play with baby
Nurse/Supplement
Wash pump parts, wash bottles
Prepare bottles for next day
Prepare breakfast/lunch for next day
Get baby ready for bed
Get myself ready for bed
Go to bed at 9:00 p.m.
KISS PC
Nurse between 12:30- 1:00 a.m.
Nurse at 4:00 a.m. on one side, pump on the other
Sleep for one more hour
Start over!
But we're making it! My first day back was spent in a fog... not really thinking about baby every minute, but rather trying to remember where I left off and how in the world I was going to get caught up! I had some sweet surprises along the day... a co-worker framed a pic of me & little man for my desk, another co-worker put some "caution" tape through the room and listed all the things I have to do for a fun joke, my mom and little man sent flowers, a sweet friend sent flowers and PC had flowers waiting on me when I got home. It reminded me that I have a good job with people I care about and such wonderful friends and family. Blessed.
Then, there is the pumping. Ugh. I close the door and put the "code" sign on it. I work through each time, about 10 minutes total, and eat & pump so that my "lunch break" is really divided up through the day and used on pumping. I'm getting about 3-6 ounces total for the day right now. It is not enough to leave for the next day so I'm having to pump at night as well. I don't know how long I can keep it up! We are having to supplement between 4-6 ounces through the day of formula and it is what it is. I want a full, content baby rather than insisting that he only gets breastmilk. I'm lucky that it has even worked out this long with minimal problems and that he is still getting about 90% breastmilk!
And by the way... I hope that I have always been understanding to the moms that I work with. Because I understand so much better now how hard it is to balance both roles. I have several 2-3 hour evening meetings coming up and the once reply of "sure, no problem" is now "how soon can we be finished?" This is a blog post in itself but let's just say I'm feeling pressure of what the job requires and getting home to this.sweet.face as soon as possible!
Wake up at 5:15 a.m.
Shower
Get Dressed
Nurse
Any baby needs- diaper change, clean paci, clean burp cloth, wash bottles
Warm up breakfast sandwich
Pack lunch, pack pump parts & bottles
Leave at 7:00 a.m.
Eat breakfast on the way
Arrive to work at 7:15
Pump at 8:30 a.m.
Pump/eat lunch at 11:30 a.m.
Pump at 2:00 p.m.
Leave at 4:00 p.m.
Arrive home at 4:15 p.m.
Change clothes, wash hands
KISS BABY
Nurse
Eat supper
Play with baby
Nurse/Supplement
Wash pump parts, wash bottles
Prepare bottles for next day
Prepare breakfast/lunch for next day
Get baby ready for bed
Get myself ready for bed
Go to bed at 9:00 p.m.
KISS PC
Nurse between 12:30- 1:00 a.m.
Nurse at 4:00 a.m. on one side, pump on the other
Sleep for one more hour
Start over!
But we're making it! My first day back was spent in a fog... not really thinking about baby every minute, but rather trying to remember where I left off and how in the world I was going to get caught up! I had some sweet surprises along the day... a co-worker framed a pic of me & little man for my desk, another co-worker put some "caution" tape through the room and listed all the things I have to do for a fun joke, my mom and little man sent flowers, a sweet friend sent flowers and PC had flowers waiting on me when I got home. It reminded me that I have a good job with people I care about and such wonderful friends and family. Blessed.
Then, there is the pumping. Ugh. I close the door and put the "code" sign on it. I work through each time, about 10 minutes total, and eat & pump so that my "lunch break" is really divided up through the day and used on pumping. I'm getting about 3-6 ounces total for the day right now. It is not enough to leave for the next day so I'm having to pump at night as well. I don't know how long I can keep it up! We are having to supplement between 4-6 ounces through the day of formula and it is what it is. I want a full, content baby rather than insisting that he only gets breastmilk. I'm lucky that it has even worked out this long with minimal problems and that he is still getting about 90% breastmilk!
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| Code for "Pumping" :] |
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| Sandwich with milk, lol! |
And by the way... I hope that I have always been understanding to the moms that I work with. Because I understand so much better now how hard it is to balance both roles. I have several 2-3 hour evening meetings coming up and the once reply of "sure, no problem" is now "how soon can we be finished?" This is a blog post in itself but let's just say I'm feeling pressure of what the job requires and getting home to this.sweet.face as soon as possible!
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Three Months
Really? Three months?!? I would describe the past three months as the most exhausting wonderful work ever! As hard as some days can be, I know we're going to look back on this time and smile and talk about how much we miss it! We love every minute of being Mac & PC & Baby Makes 3:] Hmm... maybe that should be our new blog title!
Grandma taught you how to reach up for her after a diaper change and now you reach out for someone to pick you up all the time. Everywhere! It is precious. (Well, except for when we put you to bed!)
You love staring at people and hearing them talk.
There have been some warm days where we have gone for a stroll or played on the back porch. You seem to really like outdoors, but not the sun glaring in your eyes. Of course we have bought some sun glasses!
You are holding your head up so much better but are not quite ready for the bumbo seat or Jumperoo.
You rolled over from belly to back on March 7th... you did it several times!
You still are very alert, taking in everything about the world around you.
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| Three Months Old! No time to write on the picture yet! |
Things to remember:
You have really started finding your hands. Actually, you have started sucking on your fists a lot!
You have started to drool and "make bubbles" a lot. Not quite like Charlie (our Newfie), but we are constantly looking for a burp cloth or bib now!
You have started to drool and "make bubbles" a lot. Not quite like Charlie (our Newfie), but we are constantly looking for a burp cloth or bib now!
You spend at least an hour throughout the day on the piano gym. It is the only place where you will not fuss with a wet diaper! You love it, thank you Grandma!
You are smiling all the time! Except when we get the camera out to take your picture... you get very serious.
You want your paci less... really only if you are really tired, riding in the car or at night when we put you to bed.
You had a birthmark to develop at about 12 days old (we first thought it was a scratch). It is called a hemangioma, a collection of blood vessels close to the skin, and the doctors say it will grow and then go away in your first few years of life. You like to keep your birth story interesting! It is also called an angel bite and that seems fitting!
You are still loving a bath!
Tried some new lotion on you and you had an allergic reaction. Oops. A bath and some diaper rash cream made you feel all better again. Until you had allergic reaction number 2 & 3! More baths and diaper rash cream! Please forgive us, we're working on it... now we think it may be fabric softener. So we're washing all your clothes again to be safe. You had a birthmark to develop at about 12 days old (we first thought it was a scratch). It is called a hemangioma, a collection of blood vessels close to the skin, and the doctors say it will grow and then go away in your first few years of life. You like to keep your birth story interesting! It is also called an angel bite and that seems fitting!
Grandma taught you how to reach up for her after a diaper change and now you reach out for someone to pick you up all the time. Everywhere! It is precious. (Well, except for when we put you to bed!)
There have been some warm days where we have gone for a stroll or played on the back porch. You seem to really like outdoors, but not the sun glaring in your eyes. Of course we have bought some sun glasses!
You are holding your head up so much better but are not quite ready for the bumbo seat or Jumperoo.
You rolled over from belly to back on March 7th... you did it several times!
You still are very alert, taking in everything about the world around you.
We are totally in love with you, always and forever, sweet baby boy!
Blog friends: please say a prayer for me tomorrow as the dreaded return to work day will become a reality!
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Work. Weight. Cloth Diapers. Allergic Reactions.
Today marks just one week left with my sweet little miracle baby boy before returning to the working world. My rational self says that he will be left in very capable hands and that having two incomes will help us to enjoy things that otherwise we would not. My irrational self says to sell our house and everything in it, find a cheap rental and just live on baby love! Good grief, I am a workaholic that has been detoxed! I will need prayers next Monday to get through the day! The time has went by too fast and he has changed so much already. I am going to miss him like crazy, end of story.
In other news, our little guy went for the weight follow-up appointment and (as we guessed) he is just lower on the charts for weight but is gaining almost an ounce a day like a champ! I should note we added 2-4 ounces of formula for the last feed to stretch out his sleeping and then I pump shortly after he is asleep.
Attn. cloth diaper peeps: Our LO is 12 weeks, 10 lbs. 12 oz. and 24" long... does anyone have a baby around that size that you could recommend an AIO cloth diaper that is fitted? I would like to try it out on the weekends. PC is not totally convinced (probably because he does the laundry) but I think it would save some money, give the little tush a break from disposables, and save a diaper change through the night. So sad that my main reason is not helping the environment... that will just be an added bonus. I've been researching when I can and I need someone to fill in the gaps for me, please. If I use AIO's- the whole thing just goes in the wash on cold, then in the regular wash with a hot/cold cycle, right? If I go with a different kind with pre-folds, the pre-folds come out and are put in a diaper pail (versus a wet bag?) for the same kind of wash cycle? Poop can go in the toilet or on a special liner that goes in the toilet, right? Why do I need a special spray bottle and what goes in it? We use D.reft detergent and free/clear fabric softener... would that be good enough for the wash?
New mom note to self- try out any new lotion on an area of the baby before using it and remove clothing if baby is fussy and nothing else soothes him. We have had two... TWO... allergic reactions this past week. The first one we traced back to a new lotion (so much for fragrance free & hyperallergenic) and the second one we (think) happened from rubbing a little olive oil on his head to help with cradle cap (ha, ha I just corrected myself from typing "cradle crap" which is true as well) and using the same wash cloth for the rest of the bath. Both times he broke out in little red bumps all over his chest and back. These things have made me feel like the worst parent ever! I was just trying to remedy a little eczema and cradle cap. Sorry, please forgive me sweet boy!
In other news, our little guy went for the weight follow-up appointment and (as we guessed) he is just lower on the charts for weight but is gaining almost an ounce a day like a champ! I should note we added 2-4 ounces of formula for the last feed to stretch out his sleeping and then I pump shortly after he is asleep.
Attn. cloth diaper peeps: Our LO is 12 weeks, 10 lbs. 12 oz. and 24" long... does anyone have a baby around that size that you could recommend an AIO cloth diaper that is fitted? I would like to try it out on the weekends. PC is not totally convinced (probably because he does the laundry) but I think it would save some money, give the little tush a break from disposables, and save a diaper change through the night. So sad that my main reason is not helping the environment... that will just be an added bonus. I've been researching when I can and I need someone to fill in the gaps for me, please. If I use AIO's- the whole thing just goes in the wash on cold, then in the regular wash with a hot/cold cycle, right? If I go with a different kind with pre-folds, the pre-folds come out and are put in a diaper pail (versus a wet bag?) for the same kind of wash cycle? Poop can go in the toilet or on a special liner that goes in the toilet, right? Why do I need a special spray bottle and what goes in it? We use D.reft detergent and free/clear fabric softener... would that be good enough for the wash?
New mom note to self- try out any new lotion on an area of the baby before using it and remove clothing if baby is fussy and nothing else soothes him. We have had two... TWO... allergic reactions this past week. The first one we traced back to a new lotion (so much for fragrance free & hyperallergenic) and the second one we (think) happened from rubbing a little olive oil on his head to help with cradle cap (ha, ha I just corrected myself from typing "cradle crap" which is true as well) and using the same wash cloth for the rest of the bath. Both times he broke out in little red bumps all over his chest and back. These things have made me feel like the worst parent ever! I was just trying to remedy a little eczema and cradle cap. Sorry, please forgive me sweet boy!
Friday, February 24, 2012
B.eautiful D.isasters
I have no idea what the song is about.
But it is a fitting title of life since bringing home a baby.
You already know about the G.enetian Violet and the built-ins. Oops!
Then there was moving the rock-n-play across the hardwood floor. Oops!!
Then there was moving the Jumperoo to another room and scratching the door. Oops!!!
Then there was moving furniture around to make way for baby furniture and causing marks on the paint. Oops!!!!
Then there was sleep deprived PC who missed his mouth with a morning E.spresso. Oops!!!!!
These are just a few of what I am sure will be many b.eautiful d.isasters in our home. This chapter of our lives is filling up with so many wonderful memories that all the scratches and stains are telling our stories. They are truly turning our house into a home, even if we don't quite see it that way right when it happens. I wouldn't want it any other way.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Breastfeeding... I thought we were friends!
Something is going wrong with breastfeeding. It feels like I'm on a downward spiral and I only have two more weeks until returning to work. I think there are some good formulas on the market and I supplement about 2 oz each evening before his bedtime. However, I have worked so hard these first 10 weeks to breastfeed that I would like to continue as long as I can.
In a nutshell, if I pump, there is not enough for the next feeding... so I started supplementing that feeding with pumped breastmilk... which totally defeats the purpose. Now I pump between 8 p.m. and 1 a.m. since that is such a long stretch between feedings but it's not going to be enough for that first day I return to work. It's weird because he has pulled off and acted irritated like he wants more, but then the times between feedings have grown longer recently.
I have sought out so much information about breastfeeding and have tried suggestions through the LC, blogs and reading materials. I am eating oatmeal, drinking more water, doing the massage techniques to help during pumping, etc. I will say I am not eating like I should... eating a late breakfast and usually I either have a good lunch or supper but not both.
I read somewhere that once you start supplementing or pulling from the fridge/freezer stash you are telling your body to "make 2 oz less" but why should that be the case if I pump when he gets that extra 2 oz during a long stretch until the next feeding? Also, does anyone have a baby that sleeps a long stretch like 1 a.m. to 6 a.m. who maintains their supply? This has only happened once or twice but the baby is my alarm clock through the night... if he hits snooze, so do I!
Last week breastfeeding/pumping schedule (although I feed on demand so times are not exact)-
8:30 a.m.- BF
9:00 a.m.- P
11:30 a.m.-BF
1:30 p.m. -BF
4:00 p.m.- BF
4:30 p.m.- P
6:30 p.m.- BF & Supplement- 2 oz
8:00 p.m.- "top off" BF
between 12:00-1:30 a.m.- BF
4:30 a.m.- BF
6:30 a.m.- BF
This week breastfeeding/pumping schedule-
9:00 a.m.- BF (today I had to pull out a little more from fridge to satisfy him)
(No more pumping here because my supply was so low for the next feeding.)
12:00 p.m.- BF
2:00 p.m.- BF
4:30 p.m.- BF
6:30 p.m.- BF
8:00 p.m.- BF & supplement
9:00 p.m.- P
1:00 a.m.- BF
6:00 a.m.- BF
I can't figure out if this is just a another bump in the road...perhaps another growth spurt... or if we are going to have to take a whole new path. I want our baby to be as healthy as possible and I know breastmilk helps with that, but I also want him to get a full tummy and be happy! Don't tell me "it gets easier" lol. It's true that some things are getting easier, but breastfeeding remains on the "always a work in progress" list!!!
In a nutshell, if I pump, there is not enough for the next feeding... so I started supplementing that feeding with pumped breastmilk... which totally defeats the purpose. Now I pump between 8 p.m. and 1 a.m. since that is such a long stretch between feedings but it's not going to be enough for that first day I return to work. It's weird because he has pulled off and acted irritated like he wants more, but then the times between feedings have grown longer recently.
I have sought out so much information about breastfeeding and have tried suggestions through the LC, blogs and reading materials. I am eating oatmeal, drinking more water, doing the massage techniques to help during pumping, etc. I will say I am not eating like I should... eating a late breakfast and usually I either have a good lunch or supper but not both.
I read somewhere that once you start supplementing or pulling from the fridge/freezer stash you are telling your body to "make 2 oz less" but why should that be the case if I pump when he gets that extra 2 oz during a long stretch until the next feeding? Also, does anyone have a baby that sleeps a long stretch like 1 a.m. to 6 a.m. who maintains their supply? This has only happened once or twice but the baby is my alarm clock through the night... if he hits snooze, so do I!
Last week breastfeeding/pumping schedule (although I feed on demand so times are not exact)-
8:30 a.m.- BF
9:00 a.m.- P
11:30 a.m.-BF
1:30 p.m. -BF
4:00 p.m.- BF
4:30 p.m.- P
6:30 p.m.- BF & Supplement- 2 oz
8:00 p.m.- "top off" BF
between 12:00-1:30 a.m.- BF
4:30 a.m.- BF
6:30 a.m.- BF
This week breastfeeding/pumping schedule-
9:00 a.m.- BF (today I had to pull out a little more from fridge to satisfy him)
(No more pumping here because my supply was so low for the next feeding.)
12:00 p.m.- BF
2:00 p.m.- BF
4:30 p.m.- BF
6:30 p.m.- BF
8:00 p.m.- BF & supplement
9:00 p.m.- P
1:00 a.m.- BF
6:00 a.m.- BF
I can't figure out if this is just a another bump in the road...perhaps another growth spurt... or if we are going to have to take a whole new path. I want our baby to be as healthy as possible and I know breastmilk helps with that, but I also want him to get a full tummy and be happy! Don't tell me "it gets easier" lol. It's true that some things are getting easier, but breastfeeding remains on the "always a work in progress" list!!!
Friday, February 17, 2012
Not a SAHM
Update: We went to a new pediatric office today. Guess what? They did not kick us out! We told the nurse practitioner we think modern medicine is great (hence the IVF baby) but that we just wanted to wait a little longer and spread the vaccines out. She listened and treated us like... the parents! Yay!
In other news, I have three weeks left with our little man before returning to a 40+ hour work week. I have cherished every minute of this time with our little guy. I am going to soak in every snuggle, smile, coo, cry and poop... yes, I will miss those moments too! Not going back to work has never been an option for me. This maternity leave has also taught me that I'm not cut out to be a stay at home mom. Hats off to those who take care of the baby AND the home... cooking, cleaning, going to the grocery store... for real? During the two hours that our little guy takes a routine nap my time is filled with- pumping, washing pump parts, finish getting dressed, eating something, cleaning pacifiers... sometimes I skip the finish getting dressed part to write a blog post! Then he's awake for the rest of the day with the exception of a couple of quick afternoon naps and we eat, play, change diapers and repeat. I don't feel like I can do anymore than just survive the day and wait anxiously on PC to pull in the driveway. Somehow I think going back to work will force me to accomplish more in less time and that I will just feel better- physically & emotionally. However, my heart is going to be very heavy those first days back in that world. When I think about that day approaching so quickly, I choke back tears. Although my baby will be in good hands and will be at home for three days of the week, no one will take care of him in the same way as his mama. I will miss him...terribly. I will not be returning as the worker I was before. I will not be the last one to leave. In fact, I will be counting down to the minute that I can get out the door and home to nurse this sweet boy.
In other news, I have three weeks left with our little man before returning to a 40+ hour work week. I have cherished every minute of this time with our little guy. I am going to soak in every snuggle, smile, coo, cry and poop... yes, I will miss those moments too! Not going back to work has never been an option for me. This maternity leave has also taught me that I'm not cut out to be a stay at home mom. Hats off to those who take care of the baby AND the home... cooking, cleaning, going to the grocery store... for real? During the two hours that our little guy takes a routine nap my time is filled with- pumping, washing pump parts, finish getting dressed, eating something, cleaning pacifiers... sometimes I skip the finish getting dressed part to write a blog post! Then he's awake for the rest of the day with the exception of a couple of quick afternoon naps and we eat, play, change diapers and repeat. I don't feel like I can do anymore than just survive the day and wait anxiously on PC to pull in the driveway. Somehow I think going back to work will force me to accomplish more in less time and that I will just feel better- physically & emotionally. However, my heart is going to be very heavy those first days back in that world. When I think about that day approaching so quickly, I choke back tears. Although my baby will be in good hands and will be at home for three days of the week, no one will take care of him in the same way as his mama. I will miss him...terribly. I will not be returning as the worker I was before. I will not be the last one to leave. In fact, I will be counting down to the minute that I can get out the door and home to nurse this sweet boy.
Well. Sh*t. Now I'm wishing I had the option to change my mind!
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