Goodbye Blog World, Part 1/4

This summer I plan to do something that even PC will not believe when he reads it... say goodbye to this blog.  Before doing so, I have three important posts to do.  1- what this blog and the ladies I have met here have meant to me, 2- an update on what is going on in our lives right now, and 3- some thoughts about our family and goals we have that I would like to share here.  Between getting these posts complete, I will be making the blog rounds and saying goodbye to some special people-real people- who I have never met but still call friends. 

For anyone who is not connected to some area of the blog world, this may not mean much.  For me, I am closing a chapter that has been a very important part of my life for over FIVE years, starting with my first post called "Mac and PC Enter Blogworld" on 2/26/2008.  I wrote that post without anyone "listening" and it grew to become a place I love and cherish so much that you were the second, right after PC, to know that LB was on his way.  The cheers and tears for us at that moment through comments here made this much more than a place to write thoughts, it became a source of love and strength.    

I am sad but I know it's the right time.  Recently, a new door opened for us.  I got a new job.  A job that has been a dream of mine for years.  I have a precious toddler and I happen to be very fond of his dad:]  Another dream come true.  In giving my best to both worlds, I have to let some things go and the blog is one area that I feel will inevitably get lost in the mix.  In some ways, it already has and I feel bad about that... so I would rather close this part of our story as we live out the next.

I look forward to reflection and making sure I say everything I want/need to in these final posts... 

what a journey this has been.   

Pity Party

Still trying to survive May here!  Keeping up with blog peeps the best I can mostly with my iphone but it is really hard to comment so I have some catch up to do!  A lot of posts lately are about baby #2... whether that baby is here or about to be, or whether that baby has just been discovered or TTC plans are in the works. 

I have to admit something.  I've had a bit of a pity party lately.  PC and I both agree -strongly- on closing the door of infertility treatments and the physical, emotional and financial toll that comes along with it.  But it just sucks to think that those cards were dealt to me and, if I had a normal reproductive system, who knows... we also might also be talking about baby #2.   

Then I am quickly brought to the reality of going through an IVF that produced very few follicles and only two good eggs, one of which became a dream come true.  And I'm annoyed that I had a pity party in the first place.  I am so happy.  I am so in love with our LB and we are having a blast.  I am also just being honest and having to go through a kind of "letting go" phase.  Guess what?  Yep... infertility still sucks!!!  

Tired!

A hamster got loose in my car Monday morning.  I finally found it in the back seat crawling under a blanket, ugh.  I had to call 911 the same day because a pit bull came on campus and scared a visitor who grabbed it by its ears and was scared to let go while we waited on the police.  Yesterday I got pulled over (by the same police officer who helped with the dog situation) for speeding because I was running late to get a root canal appointment.  I told the officer I was sorry, I knew better and I was on my way to the dentist office and I could not decide which was worse- the dentist or a ticket.  At least he found some humor in that -or maybe felt sorry for me- and gave me a warning.  I am so tired!  It is only Wednesday?

Vanilla flavored gas that "takes the edge off."  Fyi, did not take enough edge off! 

In toddler times, we have a very active little boy who is making his likes and dislikes known loud and clear.  One of the cutest things going on right now is LB calling out a handful of letter names.  I have to give a shout out to the "person" responsible because unfortunately it's not me...thanks to Alpha.Pig!  We watch too much kid t.v. around here.  Guilty and I admit it.  But the show S.uper W.hy has this little boy excited about letters and it is so cute to hear him shout out "A", "Eeee", "Ohhh" and my favorite to hear... M "Eem!"  However, we do turn the t.v. off to get outdoors and stalk the dogs whenever we can.  :]

   

My boys, My world

Love these moments, these memories and the stories 

that a picture can tell.  

May I not take a single second for granted!   

Life Lately

I just can't seem to find time for blogging these days but I'll often think of random topics that I want to talk about... maybe in a few weeks when things slow down at work.  Instead I'll have to settle for a few highlights of life lately. 

LB has 17 out of 20 baby teeth... 85% done, yay!  Now I am just hoping we can hang onto them for awhile with the amount of trips and tumbles that take place through the day! 

I must start remembering to take more pictures.  After LB turned one, I just kind of quit and have missed some really good photo opportunities.  However, I did not miss this one of our little "cool dude."  If only he could reach those pedals lol.

Another reason it's hard to get pictures these days is because LB is going, going, going ALL the time.  I have a bunch of blurry pics!

PC and I have been trying to reconnect lately.  It's not that we have been arguing, it just feels like we've missed out on more than a year of really talking and listening to one another.  We both understand why but don't want it to become the "norm."  One thing that has helped is putting up a safety rail on our bed and moving LB to the side so we can get back to some snuggling!  (Anything more than that has to be a little more planned and strategic!)  Of course it would really help if LB stayed in his own bed longer than midnight but we also do much better as a couple when we get some sleep! 

I am going for a job interview later this week.  The odds are not in my favor due to many factors but I keep trying to tell myself it will be "good experience" and might lead to another opportunity.  I'm searching for something that is an increase in pay but know that will also mean more hours & workload.  Any step up in pay right now would help us to get in a better financial situation so that we might have other options when LB is a little older.  Job searching and interviews are so stressful, ugh!

Tantrums.  Have.  Arrived.  They are not every day and they don't last long but... take this kid inside when he wants to stay outside and you see him morph into a closed fists, red face, screaming/growling/crying mess!  So far these have only taken place at home but wow do I have more sympathy for the parents of the screamer in the grocery store now!

I'm really excited about easing LB into a Mother's Morning Out program through the summer and two days every week this fall.  More about that and the search for a sitter later.  Right now I'm struggling to hold my eyes open and have to take advantage of some good rest these few short hours that LB sleeps in his crib.  Thanks to anyone who kept reading through our life lately and hopefully I will get some time soon to comment on all the posts I've read recently.