Tuesday, April 22, 2008

One normal cycle...???

I don't want to jinx anything, but this is the first time in several months that my cycle (minus the ER trip) was less than 6 days! I don't know if BCP or acupuncture played a role, but this has been encouraging. Here's hoping for one normal cycle... it's a start!

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Laughter is Good Medicine

So I ask PC- "Have you read my last post? Even if we go the adoption route, I think it's just natural to wonder things like that." And here's what I love about him- "Yeah, but you wouldn't see the eyes for the big bottle cap glasses the kid would have to wear. We have the worst eyesight. And think about how vertically challenged they would be." (Yeah, we're not quite the tallest couple!) Do I laugh or cry? I found it to be a very funny twist to my serious thoughts. So, I get the "Baby Herman" image in my head and that's how my day starts. I've decided- people going through IF need a good joke, good laugh, good time more than most!!! Thanks PC!

Friday, April 18, 2008

I Wonder #1...

I remember before we got married. We just knew and we spoke in future terms of "our kids" this and that. We introduced our friends and more than one has made the comment "I bet your kids are going to have big, blue eyes." So, just having one of those moments... when I wonder... what would our children look like? Would they have our blue eyes and blonde hair and fair skin? If someone asked me the hardest part of IF, I wouldn't say the shots or expense or procedures- it would have to be the "I Wonders..."

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Female Fun

Today was one of those days when it's so fun to be female... woke up with severe cramping and ended up in the ER. Turned out to be a ruptured ovarian cyst. A shot for pain and a ultrasound to confirm everything and (of course) blood work and I'm sure a bill is probably on the way. On top of that, AF showed up yesterday with a vengeance. At least there's some humor to it. The lovely gown was not buttoned at all and Dr. H. (my Gyn) walks in as PC is trying to help me out... so I have a cute doctor on one side and a cuter husband on the other side (both know each other through riding bikes- small town) and one really awkward moment of being exposed while they try to figure out a hospital gown. Worth a laugh now! So, the BCP's have succeeded in eliminating the cyst (ouch!) and at least now I should be able to go through the next couple of cycles with a "clean slate." Fun, fun---

Monday, April 7, 2008

Another step closer...

Several things on my mind! First, vacation was wonderful. It was busy
(hint, hint) but it was a much different kind of get-away-from-everything-and-have-fun type of busy. I was content just soaking in the warm temps, people-watching, and holding PC's hand... good food and thrill rides and fireworks were just icing on the cake! When we got back, I had 3 days to complete a 400 page reading log (I did have about half of it done before we left) and a 15 page research paper so the rest of the vacation was spent right here, although a million miles away from blogging!

SO- today was back to routine, but anything but normal. I had my first acupuncture appointment & that's what I really couldn't wait to share! I've had some experience with Eastern medicine and herbs and really enjoyed the book, The Infertility Cure. My mind/heart have gone back and forth-- some things make sense, some seem better left for Western medicine or, even better, Celestial medicine. But today's appointment was convincing and actually more encouraging than most of my IF adventures. The things that this acupuncturist said today just fit with my total state of health. Western medicine diagnosis is anovulation... Eastern medicine diagnosis is poor Spleen Qi. Here's the interesting part of that-- he thinks my reproductive system is right on track (this is a first)-- but the problems have come from my digestive system! That seems like a crazy thought but it really felt like this experience added more pieces to the IF puzzle and is getting me closer to egg + sperm:] More than half of the symptoms of Spleen Qi problems are a definition of me right down to the cold hands and feet. Oh yeah, this explains why I can't remember a thing and my mind never slows down but my body can't catch up (finally, the ultimate excuse). Some may be interested to know about the needles... my tension and fear of the unknown (I think) made the sensation a bit more than it should have been but I would not call it painful. A few slight stings here and there but deeper into the treatment I started to relax and I would compare it to the feeling after a good massage. I do plan on doing it again and following some herbal/diet recommendations. All in all, a positive experience in the depressing world of IF!