Friday, May 9, 2008

Recent thoughts...

Back to blogging. My work is busier than usual through the month of May and it's pulled me away from the computer. As far as where I'm at with IF, I have a "next steps" appointment with the RE on Monday and acupuncture again on Wednesday. I'm going to tell him to repeat whatever he did the first time since I actually had a normal cycle! PC says that it's because I took a month of BCPs... but I'm a little more optimistic about Eastern medicine than he is.
Several things have been on my mind lately. First, we've had some beautiful weather and it put me in the mood to plant a little garden... by little I mean like 6-7 plants, including this one.
I do not have my mother's green thumb, but I love to try! While I was working, I thought about how the whole planting process compares to IF and how frustrating it is that I can't get anything to take root! All I could think about was that line from the movie Raising Arizona where Ed found out she couldn't have children... "the doctor explained that her insides were a rocky place where my seed could find no purchase." Is it ironic that I can quote most of this crazy movie and in the past I thought it was hilarious & now I can relate to the infertility madness!?! So, back to my mini-garden... I will enjoy watching these grow & let's hope I can publish another picture in a few weeks that doesn't look just like the one above! OK- second thought(s)... maybe this will teach me to be better about keeping up with this blog... Mother's Day Weekend. I don't know what my other IF friends are doing, but I'm running! I'll admit that I'm going through an emotional-even at times bitter- mind-set and I've asked PC if we can just run from it all and he's wonderfully understanding & supportive, as well as our moms. You do not realize until you go through IF how our culture divides moms and non-moms. Now, I see & hear it all the time &, since I'm allowed & encouraged to vent here... it s-t-i-n-k-s!!! One last thought, I promise. Is it a complete anomaly that on the day we receive our grand tax refund check I turn too soon out of the garage and now have a huge bill to fix the damage on our new Jeep?

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Happy said...

Gardening is hard work! The only plants I consistently work on are my herbs. This year I'm plannng on branching out...vegetables!