Time for a new OB/GYN

AF came back after 3 days "off" and hasn't let up yet. Okay- enough is enough. Time to find a new OB/GYN and ask what the heck is going on with me! Seriously, this is crazy. If they recommend BCP's I'm ready to give in... for a month or two at least so that I can have some sense of normalcy. I don't know what test hasn't been done on me, but I'm game for whatever might help. Grrrrrrr!

Just coasting...

AF finally decided to leave after 12 days... yeah! In the IF world, I'm just coasting. Still saving $ for IVF and doing acupuncture every 6 weeks. After the meltdown at the mall a few weeks ago, I've experienced a peace... not a certainty or uncertainty that we will or will not have a baby... just a time of enjoying everyday life moments & not letting IF consume all of my thoughts. An example of a few of those moments---
1. My mom's birthday party a couple of weeks ago- she loves being the life of the party (wish I was more like her in that way) and she was so joyful & thankful over the flowers & gifts that she received... it was fun.
2. Planting a garden last weekend- it was hard work- I was tired, sore, & sunburned- but it makes me smile to see those little plants doing well & excited to think about sharing fresh vegetables... it was an accomplishment.
3. PC and I went on a pre-summer drive around a lake & had dinner at a quaint little pizza place... it was sweet.
4. Apple took off with a bag of seeds from the garden planting and before I could catch her, she scattered seeds all over the backyard & even though I yelled "bad dog"... it was funny!
Maybe some may think I'm not aggressive or passionate enough about having a baby. Believe me, it is at the top of my wish list. But in the mean time, I want to soak in life's moments regardless of what our future holds.

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[Miss Mac is the proud owner of a Mac.Book]

I have always used a work-issued Mac & the tech dept. is about to take it up for several weeks to do updates. Life without a Mac? No keeping up with blogs... no surfing the net... no i.Photo... no email...no access to grad. school work (listed in order of priority)! See my dilemma? So, I took a trip to the Apple store & bit the bullet! And they had just started an offer of a free iP.od T.ouch with the purchase of a laptop= s-w-e-e-t! What does PC think about all of this? I have no idea. I haven't been able to pull him away from the new MAC or i.pod T.ouch long enough to ask!!! :]

Sick of AF! Vent... sorry if TMI

AF (or so I thought) showed May 7-10 and was here & gone & not bad at all. So, then, why did she return...nine days later- on May 19 and is still going strong & showing no signs of going away?!? I am so sick of these unpredictable and irregular cycles! And I don't know who is responsible for printing "Have a Happy Period" on the Al.ways pad sticker but I'm thinking there must have been a MAN involved on that decision. A woman would have found a more appropriate saying like "Go away bi*ch!" I'm a regular ray of sunshine right now, huh? Just aggravated here because I had 4 months of regular, predictable cycles and then I spoke too soon.

RE visit

This week, I went to the (3rd) RE clinic... specifically to give them all of my medical history & ask questions about this clinic's IVF bundle price, basically a BOGO deal. Met with Dr. C... yes, we're good candidates and she thinks the deal will still be available at the end of the year (when we've planned to go through IVF). She is the 3rd RE to say that (just from looking at my history) I have lean PC.OS. However, I've had tests for insulin resistance & u/s that proved otherwise. I didn't even "argue" with her b/c her personality was very matter-of-fact-I'm-the-Dr.-don't-question-anything. Too abrupt for me. If we do go with this center- they have 2 other locations & I would want to switch to someone else. Anyway--- I'm considering calling my OB/GYN and asking if he will prescribe Met.formin to me for a few months. If my cycles were regular on Met.formin maybe it is possible that I have lean PC.OS. The RE's other concern was that I be treated for mild hyper.plasia before going through IVF. My endometrial lining has always been thick. That's a red flag to the RE's for pre-pre-cancerous cells. The treatment is supposed to be hormone pills for a few months. As one of my friends likes to say- all of this sours me out! All around me through the blogs that I read the most, ppl I've never met but care about are pregnant or parenting. I feel very happy for them but left behind. Many have been through the IVF process & it gives me hope that it may very well work for me as well... but I have a few hurdles to get through before I can get to that point. Sigh.