Wednesday, June 24, 2009

What's bad about...

some time off from work? Channel surfing & ... skip T.LC, skip T.LC... darn it--- why am I so drawn to A Bab.y Stor.y? How about An In.fertile Story? And they pay for all of the procedures to help the couple achieve a pregnancy... I finally might qualify for a reality show! Mac and PC... Let's Make it 3 :]

BTW... AF from h*ll is still here. 21 days & it is cramping (literally) my summer fun. I have an appt. with a new OB/GYN in 3 weeks if I can make it!

Friday, June 19, 2009

Same Blog, No Baby...

I recently revisited the infamous blogroll from SQ&SPJ and had mixed feelings to be surrounded by so many fellow female factor bloggers who are pregnant or parenting. My feelings were all over the place but consisted of (in no particular order)... "Yeah for these women! I wonder how many were IVF/adoption...etc. How long have they been trying? This should give me hope. What if it's just not in our future? I want all of these blogs to get the (P) status." And it's one of those moments where all I could feel was that our status is just a big fat (?)


Sunday, June 14, 2009

In Mac and PC World

Garden is growing... something swiped the cucumbers but, other than that, it's surviving:] And...

Charlie is almost 100 lbs. at 7 months old! We adore this Gentle Giant!!! And...


Broke ground on our future house this week! And...


Apple left a big pile of poop in our future basement... hope it's not a sign! And...

aside from the world of IF... that's a few things going on in the lives of Mac and PC.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Time for a new OB/GYN

AF came back after 3 days "off" and hasn't let up yet. Okay- enough is enough. Time to find a new OB/GYN and ask what the heck is going on with me! Seriously, this is crazy. If they recommend BCP's I'm ready to give in... for a month or two at least so that I can have some sense of normalcy. I don't know what test hasn't been done on me, but I'm game for whatever might help. Grrrrrrr!

Monday, June 1, 2009

Just coasting...

AF finally decided to leave after 12 days... yeah! In the IF world, I'm just coasting. Still saving $ for IVF and doing acupuncture every 6 weeks. After the meltdown at the mall a few weeks ago, I've experienced a peace... not a certainty or uncertainty that we will or will not have a baby... just a time of enjoying everyday life moments & not letting IF consume all of my thoughts. An example of a few of those moments---
1. My mom's birthday party a couple of weeks ago- she loves being the life of the party (wish I was more like her in that way) and she was so joyful & thankful over the flowers & gifts that she received... it was fun.
2. Planting a garden last weekend- it was hard work- I was tired, sore, & sunburned- but it makes me smile to see those little plants doing well & excited to think about sharing fresh vegetables... it was an accomplishment.
3. PC and I went on a pre-summer drive around a lake & had dinner at a quaint little pizza place... it was sweet.
4. Apple took off with a bag of seeds from the garden planting and before I could catch her, she scattered seeds all over the backyard & even though I yelled "bad dog"... it was funny!
Maybe some may think I'm not aggressive or passionate enough about having a baby. Believe me, it is at the top of my wish list. But in the mean time, I want to soak in life's moments regardless of what our future holds.