Please let me explain before someone thinks that I have lost all memory of IF and the long- almost 7 year- journey it took to get to this point!
It's the "I'm in the middle of another 2WW miserable." One week down, another to go! Anticipation... nerves... what if's... all of those same thoughts that I went through 39 weeks ago during a very emotionally & physically draining time of waiting. Then we got the news that we had been waiting to hear for so long and now I'm waiting to be able to share the news of a lifetime!
Physically, I have to say that I'm just making it day to day right now. I'm still working and pushing myself to get things done but I'm swollen and
walk waddle to try and relieve pain in my lower back and right knee. Tuesday is my last day of work and Wednesday we go back to the ob/gyn for an update. Last week we were 1.5 cm dilated and 25% effaced. I was so excited to hear that and then Dr. Google tells me women can be at that status for weeks- BOO!
Emotionally, I'm not in a (total) fearful state about pain and childbirth. I'm in a nervous/anxious state of wanting this sweet baby boy to get here healthy and safely.
In no way do I mean for this to be a somber post at such a joyful time, just that a major dose of anxiety has kicked in through another 2WW. Bring on the grand finale!!!
PC has been a true partner through all of this, but especially the past few days. Have I ever mentioned that he has been to every single appointment? He takes care of the laundry, keeps the fur babies fed and has been company for them when I just haven't felt like it, helps me with my socks and shoes, massages my back, puts his hand on my stomach every day to experience the baby's movements with me and so many more little things that mean so much. I haven't thanked him or told him how much I appreciate those things enough, but I really, really do! Today he gave me a pregnancy card that was meant to be funny but it brought on laughter and tears at the same time. Worth a share...
Laughed when I opened and saw the front (he knows how much I love to plan) and cried when I got to his note... everything is going to be okay with this man by my side:]