Monday, December 12, 2011

Update... NICU... prayers please

Blog friends, please say a prayer for our sweet little Hampton. 
(Typing as fast as I can version because we're in survival mode and every minute spent with our sweet boy is the only way we're holding it  together.)  We spent all day Saturday rejoicing with family and friends.  There is no way our little one didn't feel the love because of all the hugs, happy tears, smiles and baby adoring going on!  Throughout the day he would spit up in a choking kind of way and the nurses said it was perfectly normal because he could have swallowed some amniotic fluid/mucous.  We learned to use the little suction tool and all seemed well.  Later that night, PC and I had about two hours before the next feeding and one of the nurses said they could watch him sleep for a couple of hours in the nursery since the spitting up was a worry and we could get a couple hours of sleep.  We said that would be okay.  One and a half hours later, the nurse comes in and says that Hampton spit up and it was green and she called someone from the NICU to come look at it and he was downstairs being checked out.  Two things here- #1- PC and I would have not known that was cause for concern- sorry but we're amateurs here-and we would have thought 'mucous.'  So, kind've a blessing in disguise that he was in the nursery when it happened.  #2- You do not wake up any mother- and especially an IVF mother- and tell her that her baby is "down there being checked out."  Within the next hour (when we could sort everything out...this is around 2 in the morning btw...) our baby had been hooked up to an IV, a chest x-ray was taken and he was on antibiotics.  I called our ob/gyn and some people really got in trouble for taking these steps without the parents knowing... you girls could understand my anger, but I had to move past that quickly... Hampton needed me.  So- green spit up is a cause for concern because it could indicate a bowel blockage, infection or (best case scenario) just a sensitive tummy.  However, you have to rule out blockage/infection.  His bloodwork that morning came back with a high white blood cell count which could mean #1- he's fighting infection or #2- (other best case scenario) sometimes it's elevated just from the birth experience and adjusting to their new world.  He has been down there ever since and my heart is outside my chest right now, it's wherever he is.  I'm down there as much as possible, only coming to our room for meals and meds and a few short naps when a grandma or dad is with him (dad's on duty right now and that's a different post- thank you God for my sweet PC).  When I try to nap, I smell him on my hand and that's when I cry myself to sleep.  He is doing so good... a little trooper meeting every goal... but they are not letting him go yet in order to totally rule out infection and watch him after more feedings to check for anymore suspicious color in the spit up.  NICU is "they do not go until we're 100% sure he's a well baby."  With newborns, every doctor & nurse has explained to me that timing is everything and pre-prevention and being overly cautious is what keeps babies from a more serious illness.  I want them to be overly cautious but I WANT HIM HOME.  AND YOU ALL KNOW HOW BAD I WANT HIM HOME.  So please send some good thoughts or prayers for our sweet little guy our way... for this face... and this mama that has waited on this for almost six years.  Thank you blog family!  Love to you all!  Back to my baby boy!

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Introducing...

Baby Hampton born 12-10-11 at 7:21 a.m.  
 More details to come but we are SO in LOVE 
with our little Miracle Baby!   
Indescribable.   

Friday, December 9, 2011

He's On The Way!

Water broke 5 1/2 hours ago.  We are in the hospital and doing well.  Prayers please... to be continued.

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Official: Miserable

Please let me explain before someone thinks that I have lost all memory of IF and the long- almost 7 year- journey it took to get to this point!

It's the "I'm in the middle of another 2WW miserable."  One week down, another to go!  Anticipation... nerves... what if's... all of those same thoughts that I went through 39 weeks ago during a very emotionally & physically draining time of waiting.  Then we got the news that we had been waiting to hear for so long and now I'm waiting to be able to share the news of a lifetime!

Physically, I have to say that I'm just making it day to day right now.  I'm still working and pushing myself to get things done but I'm swollen and walk waddle to try and relieve pain in my lower back and right knee.  Tuesday is my last day of work and Wednesday we go back to the ob/gyn for an update.  Last week we were 1.5 cm dilated and 25% effaced.  I was so excited to hear that and then Dr. Google tells me women can be at that status for weeks- BOO! 

Emotionally, I'm not in a (total) fearful state about pain and childbirth.  I'm in a nervous/anxious state of wanting this sweet baby boy to get here healthy and safely.    

In no way do I mean for this to be a somber post at such a joyful time, just that a major dose of anxiety has kicked in through another 2WW.  Bring on the grand finale!!!

PC has been a true partner through all of this, but especially the past few days.  Have I ever mentioned that he has been to every single appointment?  He takes care of the laundry, keeps the fur babies fed and has been company for them when I just haven't felt like it, helps me with my socks and shoes, massages my back, puts his hand on my stomach every day to experience the baby's movements with me and so many more little things that mean so much.  I haven't thanked him or told him how much I appreciate those things enough, but I really, really do!  Today he gave me a pregnancy card that was meant to be funny but it brought on laughter and tears at the same time.  Worth a share...


Laughed when I opened and saw the front (he knows how much I love to plan) and cried when I got to his note... everything is going to be okay with this man by my side:] 

Monday, November 28, 2011

No one told me about...

these sharp shooting pains in the lady part area!  They come fast and without warning... OUCH!  Seriously, I can be walking across the room one minute and crossing my legs the next because of what feels like a needle jab down there.  Hoping someone can tell me this means baby is coming sooner than later!

We are pretty much in waiting mode around here.  The bags are packed, the car seat is installed and the names are (at least) narrowed down!  At 38 weeks, the birth stories keep rolling in.  I want to hear them and I don't want to hear them at the same time.  The only certainty is that every birth experience is unique! 

I'm also getting the "how to bring on labor" suggestions.  The most popular one is good 'ol fashioned.... bet you're thinking sex right now... nope, walking.  One of my co-workers said to spend a day at the mall this weekend and she assures me that will speed up the arrival time!  I'll consider any suggestions except for castor oil, no thank you!    

The next ob/gyn visit is Thursday.  Hoping he'll tell me things are continuing to progress.  I want this little boy to come on his terms but I'm so ready to move from the belly to birth to the baby... can't wait for that day to get here!