Husband Vent #1

I love PC. I really do. Have I mentioned that PC also stands for Prince Charming? But can I please be entitled to pick one-- just one-- teeny little marriage thing that has been hard to adjust to? There really is a male obsession with the remote control! I found this out quickly after saying "I Do." It's not like I want to watch a soap opera or Hall.mark movie every night... just want to find a compromise so that what little down time we do have is not filled with the truth about ufo's, hauntings, Big.foot... I'm not interested. And... Who is the person making the decision to play L.ethal W.eapon every night of the week? History channel- it's okay in small doses. I will say that I have come to like the D.irty J.obs guy &--I'm really mad about how this one has grown on me-- I S.houldn't Be A.live- who can't stay glued to these shows to find out how they really survive!? SO last week, the volume button stopped working. This led to an urgent trip to buy an all-in-one. PC wanted a $70 remote control. That will buy like 1 vial of Foll.istim. I had to object. Uh-oh, so PC started reading over my shoulder and placed the "Great All in One" in my lap in a not-so-gentle way and mumbled/muttered something about going outside. And that is why I am about to find out who is still in the D.ancing with the S.tars competition:]

Blog Makeover

I've been trying to figure out how to change my blog template this week. I like the new look, but it's changed some things that I can't figure out how to fix... yet. Blogging has been, in some ways, a kind of therapy. I think having a blog to vent, connect with others, and just be "me" has helped (PC agrees) my frustration level. BTW, this is #50! I've learned a lot from reading about other couple's experiences and treatments. Oh, this morning there was a very faint line on the ovulation test. It doesn't mean anything significant (or low levels of hormone?) since the line has to be equal or darker in color to the test line, but it is nice to see something. Of course I'd really love to see two pink lines:]

Cycle Update

Day 18 & so far all ovulation tests have yelled "NO!" :[ Still have ac.upuncture treatments every 6 weeks. They seem to be helping my overall health but I would really like to have consistent "normal" cycles. The last appointment Dr. C. suggested that I avoid chicken for awhile to see if that may have any effect on my estrogen levels. Don't know that I really think it could have that much of an impact... but I'm willing to try! November marks 3 years and 3 months of TTC. Long enough!

Nieces

PC & I kept his, our, nieces, K1 & K2, for the weekend so that b/sil could go on a get-away trip. For the most part, they took my mind far away from the IF struggles as I was focused on what they needed. But then there were a few moments...when you're looking at a child that could resemble your own & it brings a moment of sadness. It sure felt like stepping into a different world when you're used to a family of 2. More... dishes, laundry, mess... but also more laughs and special memories as they're not far from the teen years & spending time with us won't be on their "priority" list. I enjoy making them pose for pictures and doing crafty stuff with them. They adore PC & joking with him. My hope is in the near future they have a cousin(s) to enjoy!

Moving Forward

The past 10 days have definitely stunk. But things are looking up. AF stopped without medical intervention and I'm on to ovulation test sticks for the next couple of weeks. Trying to eat healthier, continue with acc.upuncture and keep praying. I tried the BBT charting-- it was all over the place. If I had to take a look at my history & put the pieces together, I (think) anovulation for me is a result of hormonal imabalance. I think my estrogen levels rise & the progresterone never kicks in. I wish there was an easy fix! I don't know what the next few months hold for us in terms of IF treatment. It feels like we're at an indefinite standstill. I do have an appt. in two weeks with a new ob/gyn. Maybe she'll have some ideas about where to go next. Losing "C" was a shock. He made our lives so much richer & I will be thinking about ways to turn this tragedy into an opportunity. PC is my rock through everything!